Another one of those unfinished posts!
So I call this post moving on, well actually that it is what it is all about.... moving on. It seems to have been sometime since I last blogged, over six months to be precise. I cant really remember what I last wrote about, i suppose because it has been rather an eventful year to 2010 or at least the latter part of 2010. The beginning of 2011 was somewhat a fresh beginning.
The most eventful and rewarding moments came at my engagement and nuptials. This truly marked the end of one long chapter in my life and the beginning of another. To be honest with you, when you get to my age as I did to the not so tender age of 31, one almost loses hope and anticipation of a forthcoming marital partnership. To the point where any talk based on marriage by the elders is seemingly not entertained, I mean after all if you get to 30 plus and still no sign of the 'right' guy then whats the point. The 'right' guy? what and who makes it as the 'right' guy you may ask, well each will have their on ideology and opinions on that subject. Mine wasn't based around money, profession, looks (yes looks do matter, don't get me wrong) but it would be a person who would encourage and flourish the good in me and help heal the pain in me and vice versa, that is a lot to ask for since such things do not seemingly appear immediately in any given person.
I found what I was looking for or at least I thought what i was looking for. To be honest with you when you meet the right guy it kind of just clicks there is no rhyme or rhythm to it, it just happens and it feels right. Believe me it does!
In the space of one year I got married and gave birth to a beautiful girl. There was a time I often wondered if my life would actually move forward or was I going to be stuck in the same place forever and whilst many also lost hope for my promising future it was nice that I could prove all wrong.
Life has moved on considerably and many chapters have been turned, a lot learnt, a lot to still learn and life is truly amazing!
Keep smiling -:)
Thursday, 8 December 2011
Thursday, 19 May 2011
What a strange coincidence
This particular blog is two years on to the exact date...
I have been away from some time, though I have been writing various pieces I just haven't had the chance to publish.
Today I had the sudden desire to revisit some steps and look back and in doing so came across several unfinished pieces or writing. I decided to publish some of those and hopefully this is a start to a new beginning so to speak but incidentally I realised to the date 19th May 2009 was when I opened this particular blog, and although I haven't written in a while, some things are just never meant to die!
19th May is indeed a good date for moi :)
Stay happy people :)
I have been away from some time, though I have been writing various pieces I just haven't had the chance to publish.
Today I had the sudden desire to revisit some steps and look back and in doing so came across several unfinished pieces or writing. I decided to publish some of those and hopefully this is a start to a new beginning so to speak but incidentally I realised to the date 19th May 2009 was when I opened this particular blog, and although I haven't written in a while, some things are just never meant to die!
19th May is indeed a good date for moi :)
Stay happy people :)
Short journey into the deep journey
I wrote this post last year but have only completed and published it now!
For some time now, I have been meaning to put pen to paper (so to speak) and journey into the journey that I made with mom and dad in March this year (last year) for Umrah. Praise be to Allaah I have had the opportunity to make this journey on several occasions over the last two decades.
In essence I have been fortunate enough to notice the several changes that have occurred between my first visit back in 1996 and the most recent trip this (last) year. But one thing that has never altered are the feelings evoked through such a trip, they remain in the most robust beam. Umrah and Hajj especially is a trip, a holiday, a vacation but of sorts that one often fails to consider its full potential, a necessity, should means allow. For me umrah is a vacation away from the world over.
Before I embarked on this trip on this occasion I made a firm pact to myself that I would allow myself the minimum of contact to the elements that take over during most of my days. These two weeks would be of my making at the will of Allaah and so with this pact affirmed we set out on this trip.
Our first stop was going to be Madinah, I completely desired to be in the outstanding city of our beloved Prophet Mohammed salalahu alihi wasalam and so as we embarked on our trip, the closer we got to our destination the more I became like the child who was about to be reunited with its mother. I cannot ever explain truly and fully the emotions induced just by nearing to this city let alone being in this beautiful city. No person can ever say that there is place more serene, full of warmth and care and compassion than Madinah. No human can ever walk on this earth and not think of our greatest leader of all times, Rasul of Allaah.
We were fortunate enough to be situated with our hotel residence quite close to the beautiful Masjid of Rasul of Allah and views were magnificent and the eagerness to get closer in the compounds of the Masjid, the moment your eyes opened were amazing.
Makkah was our next and final stop for Umrah before we departed for home. There is a unique sense of charge and frenzy within Makkah but away from the bustle of it all, the constant attraction towards the Kaabah is of course the total nearness to our Divine Lord that one longs for.
Structural changes not related to the holy sites itself but the surrounding areas have convincingly occurred and to those who do not remember the 'old' wont see the actual impact the difference 'new' makes. Innovation and change is my passion but at first the overwhelming structural changes that loom over your head while in the compounds were quite daunting and it was hard to ignore these and focus on the Masjid alone. But I soon realized other changes that had occurred, in this modern day of mobile phones and ever-changing technology our lovely brethren were making great use of these tools but I asked myself, each picture and video they were capturing of their comrades / family or just the scenes itself, within it were captures of other pilgrims, as irate as that made me feel, me alone feeling this way was not going to make the other pilgrims stop. I found myself asking, isn't there a place anywhere where we can rectify our souls and ponder in seclusion without the need for tall buildings and technology suffocating you?!
Have beautiful structures but do we really need them loom over the Kaabah?. Use your phones but do you not think its best to switch them off at prayer times? Take pictures but seriously my friends, pictures of you at the Kaabah, what is so astounding about that? A pilgrimage is after all a personal experience so make your pictures personal, don’t include every other stranger that may pass during that moment, for they deserve their privacy too.
That's the materialistic change I found, but aside from this my emotional attachment to these two serene and perceptible places remain truly the same, more so now that ever.
May the Lord grant us all the wonderful experience of Hajj / Umrah, Ameen.
Peace to all!!
For some time now, I have been meaning to put pen to paper (so to speak) and journey into the journey that I made with mom and dad in March this year (last year) for Umrah. Praise be to Allaah I have had the opportunity to make this journey on several occasions over the last two decades.
In essence I have been fortunate enough to notice the several changes that have occurred between my first visit back in 1996 and the most recent trip this (last) year. But one thing that has never altered are the feelings evoked through such a trip, they remain in the most robust beam. Umrah and Hajj especially is a trip, a holiday, a vacation but of sorts that one often fails to consider its full potential, a necessity, should means allow. For me umrah is a vacation away from the world over.
Before I embarked on this trip on this occasion I made a firm pact to myself that I would allow myself the minimum of contact to the elements that take over during most of my days. These two weeks would be of my making at the will of Allaah and so with this pact affirmed we set out on this trip.
Our first stop was going to be Madinah, I completely desired to be in the outstanding city of our beloved Prophet Mohammed salalahu alihi wasalam and so as we embarked on our trip, the closer we got to our destination the more I became like the child who was about to be reunited with its mother. I cannot ever explain truly and fully the emotions induced just by nearing to this city let alone being in this beautiful city. No person can ever say that there is place more serene, full of warmth and care and compassion than Madinah. No human can ever walk on this earth and not think of our greatest leader of all times, Rasul of Allaah.
We were fortunate enough to be situated with our hotel residence quite close to the beautiful Masjid of Rasul of Allah and views were magnificent and the eagerness to get closer in the compounds of the Masjid, the moment your eyes opened were amazing.
Makkah was our next and final stop for Umrah before we departed for home. There is a unique sense of charge and frenzy within Makkah but away from the bustle of it all, the constant attraction towards the Kaabah is of course the total nearness to our Divine Lord that one longs for.
Structural changes not related to the holy sites itself but the surrounding areas have convincingly occurred and to those who do not remember the 'old' wont see the actual impact the difference 'new' makes. Innovation and change is my passion but at first the overwhelming structural changes that loom over your head while in the compounds were quite daunting and it was hard to ignore these and focus on the Masjid alone. But I soon realized other changes that had occurred, in this modern day of mobile phones and ever-changing technology our lovely brethren were making great use of these tools but I asked myself, each picture and video they were capturing of their comrades / family or just the scenes itself, within it were captures of other pilgrims, as irate as that made me feel, me alone feeling this way was not going to make the other pilgrims stop. I found myself asking, isn't there a place anywhere where we can rectify our souls and ponder in seclusion without the need for tall buildings and technology suffocating you?!
Have beautiful structures but do we really need them loom over the Kaabah?. Use your phones but do you not think its best to switch them off at prayer times? Take pictures but seriously my friends, pictures of you at the Kaabah, what is so astounding about that? A pilgrimage is after all a personal experience so make your pictures personal, don’t include every other stranger that may pass during that moment, for they deserve their privacy too.
That's the materialistic change I found, but aside from this my emotional attachment to these two serene and perceptible places remain truly the same, more so now that ever.
May the Lord grant us all the wonderful experience of Hajj / Umrah, Ameen.
Peace to all!!
What was a the start of a new term...is now almost the end of the year
New beginnings, that is... the start of a whole new year at school.
Same school, same friends but it's a different year, a new year, the next level up.
That is what is my lovely neice has been looking forward to since... well...since the summer holidays had began. Exactly!
This beautiful, creative and intelligent child had already begun to look forward to going back to school on the very first day of her school holidays.
Not because she didn't like vacation time, far from it; the child totally loves holidaying, though she will always quickly remind us how she so misses her friends when on vacation, like the time when we were in Australia, she kept reminding me that though she was having a fabulous time, seeing all these new places, she really did miss her friends.
My gorgous neice is special because she loves to learn, at such a tender age she is already teeming with mountain of knowledge, than most ordinary children her age, she applies herself wholly and attempts to be a good role model for her sibling and to other young girls..now that is rare.
I am looking forward to hearing all about her first day back at school and I am pretty sure she will have many stories to tell throughout the term and the year
Children are a beautiful gift, for they are our future -:)
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Another one of those moments, where thoughts were interrupted, pen to paper got casted aside by other menial tasks. Though I have nothing to add for it will kill the original writing, I certainly couldn't neglect this post.
What was the start of a new term back in September 2009, that child has matured immensely, through her thinking and her abilities and as the year almost comes to an end for Summer, its is with no doubt a time to reflect and a time to move forward :)
Nieces...
I love my nieces, I mean totally adore them, they are the two most adorable kids ever (yes I know I would say that) biased I may be but then who isn't towards their own children or those they are closest to, when you have children around, your negative emotions and feelings can disappear, momentarily you feel alive again, kids are the joy to that.....
Rewind.........................
Apparently I never finished this post, I mean God knows what prompted to initiate a topic on my nieces! Kids are bundle of joy, I always longed for my own but recently I was reminded by something that what said in passing and got me thinking, 'don't expect anything from anyone, even from your kids'. How many of us live our lives full of expectations? How many of us do and say things expecting something in return and then there comes a day where you hit a brick wall, high expectations that do not turn and go your way are downtrodden by misery, guilt or hurt leaving you wondering why you ever bothered, was it ever worth it?
Well I've learnt in the last year and more so recently, definitely 'do not expect anything', if you get it, its a bonus but certainly if you don't at least you are saved that hurt and pain. Its a difficult way of thinking and feeling to learn, adapting to this new form of thought seems almost ruthless at time and often I wonder how or why you reach such a stage of feeling and thinking.
People are not the same, times are not similar, circumstances change, so why cant feelings change, of course they are bound for change, one cannot stay submerged and almost trapped in the same way of thought and feeling, well you can at the risk of falling behind or worse still digging your own grave.
Anyway back to my nieces, kids are a beautiful gift, from the moment God bestows His mercy upon you and blesses you with a child, that creation and formation within the mother, how can anyone understand the nearness that women feels to God and to the child except that women who goes through such an experience. This is before the babies see the light of this world. Beyond that, we watch them learn, grow, share, experience, fall, rise and the endless experiences associated with parenthood.
At difficult times just wathcing my nieces, it reminded me constantly of the wonderful reasons behind our existence, often when we wonder what our purpose in life is or where it is we are heading to, let us remember where it is we came from! One of many favours of God to us; children!
They've just passed their birthday but since this post was intended to be published in the late summer of 2010, I now have a chance to complete it, and although it won't completely reflect my thoughts back then, in essence it captures most of what I may have been thinking. Finally, I know for sure this post a dedication to my beautiful two nieces, Happy Belated Birthday Girls :) xxx
Rewind.........................
Apparently I never finished this post, I mean God knows what prompted to initiate a topic on my nieces! Kids are bundle of joy, I always longed for my own but recently I was reminded by something that what said in passing and got me thinking, 'don't expect anything from anyone, even from your kids'. How many of us live our lives full of expectations? How many of us do and say things expecting something in return and then there comes a day where you hit a brick wall, high expectations that do not turn and go your way are downtrodden by misery, guilt or hurt leaving you wondering why you ever bothered, was it ever worth it?
Well I've learnt in the last year and more so recently, definitely 'do not expect anything', if you get it, its a bonus but certainly if you don't at least you are saved that hurt and pain. Its a difficult way of thinking and feeling to learn, adapting to this new form of thought seems almost ruthless at time and often I wonder how or why you reach such a stage of feeling and thinking.
People are not the same, times are not similar, circumstances change, so why cant feelings change, of course they are bound for change, one cannot stay submerged and almost trapped in the same way of thought and feeling, well you can at the risk of falling behind or worse still digging your own grave.
Anyway back to my nieces, kids are a beautiful gift, from the moment God bestows His mercy upon you and blesses you with a child, that creation and formation within the mother, how can anyone understand the nearness that women feels to God and to the child except that women who goes through such an experience. This is before the babies see the light of this world. Beyond that, we watch them learn, grow, share, experience, fall, rise and the endless experiences associated with parenthood.
At difficult times just wathcing my nieces, it reminded me constantly of the wonderful reasons behind our existence, often when we wonder what our purpose in life is or where it is we are heading to, let us remember where it is we came from! One of many favours of God to us; children!
They've just passed their birthday but since this post was intended to be published in the late summer of 2010, I now have a chance to complete it, and although it won't completely reflect my thoughts back then, in essence it captures most of what I may have been thinking. Finally, I know for sure this post a dedication to my beautiful two nieces, Happy Belated Birthday Girls :) xxx
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