Encouraging..

Now I know yesterday I was raging mad and whatnot, I was so out of character, it really is not usually me but I suppose sometimes things just get on top of us a bit. In fact I didn't realise how negative I was yesterday. Don't get me wrong I am not excusing my behaviour in any shape or form. What happened did really happen, and my fault really was a genuine fault.

Today I reflect on yesterday and fully realise that no two days are the same. Sure enough my determined effort to stop has been fruitful as I have managed nearly a full 24 hours to put a stop (notice how I have dropped the caps)..anyway back to what I was saying. I realise that in moments of weakness I relapse but at the end of it I have remorse and realise that the conscious within me is still alive and kicking and I am so grateful for that

I am not completely weak after all and I do hope my firm resolution will continue to work its way right to the very end.

In the meantime I was trying to find some encouraging words on the web, over repentance, forgiveness, mercy and all those things that make up for the correctness of our character and person as a whole.

One interesting piece I read was an account between Ibraheem Bin Adam and Abu Ishaq (may Allaah be pleased with them both).

Abu Ishaq came to Ibraheem Bin Adam distressed unable to stop sinning and Ibraheem advised that if he was able to accept FIVE conditions and put them into practice, the disobedience or sinning will halt. Desperate and determined the man asked what these conditions were:

1] “The first is that when you want to disobey Allah you do not eat anything He provides.”

2] “When you want to disobey him, move off His land.”

3] “When you want to disobey Him in spite of eating His provision and living on His land, find a place where He will not see you and disobey Him there.”

4] That when the Angel of Death arrives to take your soul, you say to him, ‘Give me a reprieve so that I can repent and act righteously for Allah.’”

5] “That when the angels of the Fire come to you to take you to the Fire, you do not go with them.”


Now understand my friends that the above FIVE conditions are totally impossible to accomplish. Am I not right? There is no land you can go and or hide away within where God will not see you, nor can you hold back and ask for more time to make an official pardon when the Angel of Death arrives to take your soul? Of course not. These FIVE conditions can never be met. Each of these conditions are led by the Uniqueness and Power of God. How can one eat the fruits provided by God, live in the land provided by God and still disobey Him..that is God. Every act of disobedience will always contradict with these conditions.

In this case, Abu Ishaq had heard enough, repented with sincerity and vowed to be assiduous in his worship and remain in vigilance of avoiding acts of disobedience until the day he died.

May we all share the same spirit and determination as Abu Ishaq.

Faith can never die...

Aisha