The wrapping up of Ramadhan was a little chaotic. Nevertheless, the whole idea of a one day Itikaaf was with success, even if I realised how difficult it is to completely switch off from the world, seriously people it's not as easy as the switching 'on and off' of a light! I vowed that I would take more time out for ‘meditation’ and such things throughout the year and not just in Ramadhan. Towards the end of the day though as it came to a close and just as I had gotten into the flow of things, I wished I had set my task for a longer period, but on the contrary all the time I was conscious that I also had to fulfil my obligation to the family who weren’t so far away...downstairs!
Ramadhan went peacefully, though one dark thought continued to prey on our minds, more so for mum, dad and myself. The eventful days previous to Ramadhan chose to linger through the course of Ramadhan and though we chose a course of action we knew it may not have been the best but considering the phase we were in, the focus was on experiencing the spiritual month to the best of our ability, not one focused on issues that were caused through ignorance and self infliction.
Finally as the last day of Ramadhan came to almost a close, I attempted to resolve the issue that had waited long enough! I realised how stubborn the actual situation was! Between us we felt like our attempts were falling on deaf ears, so to speak and as Eid morning dawned on us, any chances of reconciliation looked slim.
I was pretty sure that the one particular prayer I made throughout the month of Ramadhan, Allah will surely fulfil in good time. Things took as unexpected turn on Eid day which I’ll write about soon but with it bought the hope that we were all wanting so sincerely.
May Allaah accept our worship and keep us steadfast beyond Ramadhan.
So' long O’Dear Ramadhan and may we be your guests again soon.
Aisha
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