OCD

So I have been a bit quiet lately, quiet it may seem but not in my head, it's been very noisy.  See there are a million (or what seems like a million) things  going around in my head at any given second, so much so that not much of it is coherent.  I guess you could call it stress.  Call it whatever you want but it sure aint a great thing. 

I've spent the last 5 weeks being a homemaker, holding down my usual fulltime occupational role, retaining a professional attitude, when I actually just wanted to say, well let's just that vocabulary is left well alone.  I've cooked, cleaned, washed, ironed, school rounds, oh that 9-5 position, entertained guests, baby sitting, baking, gardening, bills, lawyers, banks, mortgages, car servicing, birthdays, mending relationships, strengthening relationships, airport runs and so on and on....and to top things up, I've developed OCD.  Yes me, the very person who has an organised chaos in her very own bedroom, has OCD.  You see, I now line shoes in an absolute straight row.  My rugs are so carefully positioned on the floor.  The concept of scatter cushions is well quite frankly very messy in my OCD world.  Everything's clean, neat, tidy, so much so that I clinch everytime the bathroom needs to be used or the kitchen is taken advantage of!  I can't seem to stop using the washer and the vaccum!  I am clinically obssesed. 

Five weeks ago I was wondering how I would manage running a home.  Well I proved that I could but I've taken it to a level of absolute perfection.  I was once reminded at work to stop being a perfectionist,  the Type A personality attitude that will do no good in the long run.  So as I now hand back my responsbility I wonder whether I will take this approach in my own home, should I do so, I would imagine I am risking skating on icy ground, especially since I can't skate!

Aisha